So, I wanted to start a blog just to unload pretty much without censor about my life and i remembered, Dude, I totally have a blog already. I'm back and ready for action in this next series of posts until my mind decides to forget that this exists.
What IT be Like...
This semester and year has been a tremendous test already for me. I am finding though that my own biggest enemy is myself in all of these things, go figure. If only i had listened better to my parents, past leaders and professors, and the majority of books about getting my butt into gear. Well hear we go again. There's always something to learn and learning this again for the umpteenth time is going to be absolutely killer.
Work is about to pick up for me witch is a great benefit that the Lord is providing for me, Halelujah. It looks like it will be semi consistant construction/agriculture work with a friend from church. I don't mind it being a physically straining thing since i dont get to put many hours into outdoor activities with the mountain of homework that I have.(Note to self: finish Exegesis on 1 Samuel 15) The money should take care of some of my expenses and chip away at my loans if i can play my cards right.
Classes are amazing and i find them quite rewarding when i look at the bigger picture on the semester and so then i put my head back down and plow away at what seems sometimes to be hours of busy work. I know this to be my minds way of saying one of these things: 1)I'm getting really worn out 2) This is not very challenging right now 3) Cant we all just stop this crazy roller-coaster? No matter what its worth it to me. One class in particular, Spiritual Gifts, has been so annoying to me because i know this even if it doesn't seem i do. However, after a good talk with my professor i found i can look at the class in a different light and look forward to future study into my own giftings and walk with the Lord.
Final thing on the discussion board is my "love life." Such nonsense is to be discussed because it is necessary to work out the knots in my chest in order for my soul to be released to my life's dedication. More and more I am asked about who I am interested in and called to give voice names that might as well be shackles to my ankles. Foolishly I look and keep watchful eye for ladies full of love, beauty and grace to steal my soul away. In this i have not found the one in which i seek, but of course this is an action fouled by the deceit of a mind in fear of pain. However pessimistic I may come across, I am oceans away from being. My heart in reality simply wont stop bleeding, and I must deal with its daily burning, the wretched romantic. I truly long for the day that I can have a constant companion at my side. If answers I must give then this it shall be:
My Love,
Wherever you are, I will find you. If it takes every bit of my strength, the endurance of my every bone breaking, or the crossing of great seas and perils then so be it. You will be mine and my heart will be yours forever. Pray for me.
Love
Daniel
