Me and The Boogie Man in My Closet

Hey everyone,
I know it's been a while since i posted anything but it was because i was really trying to avoid it believe it or not. Reason being, I had to do something I have been terrified of do since before I can remember and to be completely honest, I have no idea why. It could be many reasons, but I think the biggest of them is because I don't want to be hurt again like that. Doesn't make much sense to me why that would be but I think that maybe, it really was the reason I didn't want to talk to him again. I may never understand the reasoning behind my fear, but it has been faced, and in the Lord's unimaginable strength, I have come out the other side still here, still me.

I would like to write about how I see this, how I feel about the whole situation. Truth be told, I sat here for and hour this morning starting and restarting and staring at this blog post, trying to get it out. I've had no such luck, but all things in time. My Father has me and that is all I need.

Thank you Joshua for standing strong and courageous when the Lord told you to be, taking the promise land with full confidence in the Lord and His amazing might and power. Thank you David for facing the giant Goliath and knowing that our Father would deliver him into your hands. Thank you Daniel for the boldness to stand in plain view of all while you prayed, knowing that you would go to the lions. Somehow you and I have both come out unscathed. Thank you Without you i would have certainly fallen.

Daniel 6:21-23(King James Version)
²¹Then said Daniel unto the king, "O king, live for ever. My God hath sent his angel, and hath shut the lions' mouths, that they have not hurt me: forasmuch as before him innocency was found in me; and also before thee, O king, have I done no hurt." Then was the king exceedingly glad for him, and commanded that they should take Daniel up out of the den. So Daniel was taken up out of the den, and no manner of hurt was found upon him, because he believed in his God.

Blessings to you all, my most precious loved ones.

Me

Why am I so Soft?

If you read this  blog, sorry ahead of time. I'm a real person, unlike those you see around you, and I don't like hiding behind a false face and say everything is ok when sometimes its not. This just happens to be one of those days.

Ok, so stuff will always come up in life that hurts. I'm used to it. After twenty one years of life I can say that I have some authority on the issue. Why then is my heart still so soft? Why does it hurt when things happen to me? Why would the careless words of a dear friend cause such pain? Sometimes I just don't understand myself. I have endured so much, been injured so badly, and yet my heart is still so easily cut, as if the years of torture and suffering that it has endured was never there. There are moments where I just wish I was different, cold, unfeeling even. It would certainly take care of my heart problems. I know though, that I must endure and continue on my walk into my purpose. Without this heart I would be unable to do what I was made to do.

Lord be my shield and my strength. I need you now as I always have and always will. I long to rest in your arms Daddy.

Up to the 4th

Hey guys,
Been a little while since i last posted so here goes nothing.

I have had a few more of those top secret lessons I mentioned before and let me say, each one just gets better and better and I love it more and more. Funny since it used to be something that I was terrified of. Anyway, Last week was pretty normal and boring, unfortunately, until a dear friend and brother of mine showed up at my work and took me to see Transformers. It totally made my day, so let me just say, Thank you Berto! You rock man.

I had an awesome 4th of July, possibly the best ever. I was at a friend of mines for the very first time on this wonderful holiday and I was so happy to be there. I haven't hung out with these guys in forever and I feel so blessed to have been having the pleasure of being with them on this great day in our nation. After eating 3 Ib of food, swimming, throwing kids in the pool, singing random songs, dancing around, talking too much, laughing as much as possible, and soaking in the good times I took off to see my family.

If any of you guys know my family you know that they are absolutely amazing and pretty much gifted/cursed with being everyone's favorite family to visit. SO, I show up at the house to find no open parking spots on the street anywhere, not my family's fault but due to the fact that everybody parties hard on my street, and I parked down the street at my friends. When i got in the house I found cousins, uncles, aunts, my grandma, and coolest of all, my Uncle Tony. I was once again invited to eat 5 Ib more food, which i did happily, and I enjoyed all the small talk and laughs that come with being in my crazy family(Trust me. We talk about some crazy stuff. Anybody want to hear about my dad's point system with my mom?..Yah). So after that epic-ness was over, we went outside and threw around the football while dodging traffic that was trying to find parking spots on the street. More and more people continued to show up at our house and I couldn't have been happier about it. The fireworks were good but the company watching them were some much better. I spent the whole time looking at the sky while talking to my mom and sister. It was great.

After all the family and friends went home I watched Mr and Mrs Smith with my sister and her boyfriend. It was a great way to end the night.

Ya. It's late and there is more to talk about but I need to sleep. So, talk to you guys soon. Remember to live like the lions that you are.