Me and LOVE and my love

I started writing about Joshua today but my heat led me to convey in word what is pressing on my inner self today and every day. I guess it's because I'm just built for Love(our Father) and to be loved by someone. Eh...What can I say? I'm a romantic

If you know me, you know that I am different from anyone you have ever met. I do not brag or boast in saying this. If you were to take anyone and compare our hearts though, you would find this to be true. Most people do not and cannot understand love to any extent. I do not presume to say that I know and understand Love in its entirety. This is just not a conceivable feat for any human being to do, unless your Jesus Christ. I will say though, I know Love better than most and am capable of depth in it that nobody I personally know can touch. Rough stuff really since a Wife in my future would have to deal with a kind of intensity in love and adoration that is even in my own eyes, insanity to its very core. The old saying about Love is true. Love is blind. By choice, it looks not on what has been done but to the heart of the one that is hurting so much they would act out on their darker impulses.

Love is so much more than what everyone thinks or feels. I know we also hear it said that it is a choice that has to be made and lived. This is what I believe love is and have lived it to be in my life. Love sees the need in the eyes of every man and woman around you, and cries as it works on their heart through a hello and God bless you. And when the strangers around it are long gone and on their way its speaks silent prayers of blessing and healing in their lives. Love sees a neighbor and shouts with joy as it helps carry groceries in from their car and asks how their day was, listening as good and the bad fall on the table simply comforting as it happens. It shows itself in all its glory when the high and mighty fall and are taken in by the previously poor and oppressed, ever seeing them as His. It gives its last meal to another even if it hasn't eaten in days, and rejoices. Though someone cause it pain it sees that person as its brother and embraces the ill, taking it into itself so that a part of love's heart is given to the pain causer. Love sees its lover say goodbye and still, through tears, lets go of her hand and forgives, not angry, broken and torn it may be forever.

I think I made some of what I see clear. I don't see crowds around me. I see lot of lost and lonely souls, hungry hearts, yearning that never ends for a Love they will never understand and, I pray, will come to meet and start to see. When I am with a portion of my family I cry on the inside, tears of utter joy for  being blessed with knowing them. I am more at peace when surrounded by those I care about then I ever am alone, even when they may not like me. What can I say? I am crazy after all. I'm crazy in love with Love and my love.
May the Love of my life bring my love to me and open the depths of my heart even more so that I can let the wells out for others to take of.

Oh... And love, my lover that i know so well yet I do not know, find me. I am ill without you.

Blessings guys.