Making Tough Decisions

SO, I have some awesome stuff going on in my life. The new school, incredible friendships growing, moving again( this time into a dorm), and I guess just doing things that I didn't think I would ever do before.

With this awesomeness comes a test of life or two. The only way that going to school works is if you can pay for it somehow. I don't have enough financial aide to pay for all of it that way, and actually i can only pay for about half. So, I did what any good student would do...I went and talked to my parents about it. You see, my family has never taken care of itself as it should, being to busy giving to others and all that. My Dad wants to take care of school for me so bad but he can't and I have already told him that he doesn't need to and shouldn't have to. So the question is, How do we pay for this incredible journey?

I am working and am able to save a little money, though it isn't much. My Dad wants to take care of some of it too, and I got some old savings from Grandma Lin, thank and God bless you as you talk with the Lord in Heaven this Day! However, it isn't enough to take care of it all for the year, and I still got the following years to take care of. In short, I need a miracle.

There is one other thing that I have prayed much about and thought hours upon in recent times. My biological father was a Navy man and I know that if i get in contact with him i might be able to take care of school completely. This would be incredible. The only thing is, I have not seen or talked to him since the day he left 17 years ago. I don't want to just use him for money, but i need it and he can give it to me. I also know that once i contact him he will keep in touch with me, and maybe more than that. There are lots of complication that go into the whole situation. Contact with me may cause him to think its ok to just come when he wants. There are other family issues to take into consideration. And he may be troublesome.

Its a big box to look at and do I want to open it? I have no doubts that I am going to the school i should be and that I am on the path that I am meant to be on. There is just a question as to how I progress from here. What is the correct decision to make? Lord give me wisdom in this and guide my steps.

Blessing all